February 2011
75 posts
Someone
There’s someone new. He wants to be a high school English teacher, he reads, he works at a coffeeshop, and he comes in to see me at Borders every Sunday. He is really nice.
“We’ll have drinks,
And talk about things and,
Any excuse to stay awake...”
– Goodnight and Go — Imogen Heap
Sunshine — Atmosphere
My choice hangover...
“You’ve got a bad case of being over there. The only cure is being over here.”
– I Wrote This For You: The Distance To Me (via kari-shma)
Day 05: A time you thought about ending your own...
High school was a rough time for most people. I was lost — I didn’t know who I was, what I wanted to be, or what kind of people I wanted to surround myself with. Life at home was especially rough — my dad had drinking problems, my mom was in denial, and my sister was out to get me at all times. One day, in Geometry, I turned to my friend Rebecca and told her that I seriously...
January 2011
65 posts
“Alright don’t worry even if things end up a bit too heavy
We’ll all...”
– Modest Mouse
“Whatever makes you happy, whatever you want, you’re so very special…...”
– Radiohead
Day 04: Your views on religion
My parents made me go to church, most of the time it was just my mom and I. To clarify, we were mostly a Christmas Eve and Easter crowd. I always thought it was really boring, and as I grew into my teenage years I decided that I didn’t like organized religion. That said, I do believe something is there. I don’t know what it is, and I don’t put my entire self into trying to find...
Day 03: Your views on drugs and alcohol
I have found that drugs and alcohol have their place in my life, but they are never more important than, well, the important things. Alcohol was a problem— not for me — for my dad. His drinking caused many years of my decreased self worth and eventually my parents’ divorce and consequent fracture of the family. I mean, no big.
With that said, I enjoy a night of drinking like...
Day 02: Where you'd like to be in 10 years.
In ten years I’ll be almost turning 30. By that time I hope I accomplish some things that are important, such as graduating college, having a steady full time job, and other responsible things like that. But more so than those things, I hope I live freely and take in my 20’s like I wish I had taken in my teenage years. If I had known then that those were the best of times, I would have...
“I drive around the streets, an inch away from weeping, ashamed of my...”
– Bukowski
Day 01: Your current relationship
I am currently single and although singledom has its lonely moments, it is overall a very nice way to be living life right now. I don’t really want to try to put a shiny glistening spin on it, because I don’t feel like it. I just take comfort in knowing that after class, I can go home and have eggs on toast and take a nap, and no one will be wanting anything from me. I can go about my...
“My room smells like formaldehyde and I don’t know how or why that could...”
– my journal, 3/31/10
“You were cool in high school because you never gave a fuck about what people...”
– Brittany
“In my past, bittersweet,
There’s no love between the sheets,
Taste the...”
– Shake Me Down, Cage the Elephant
sleepy snow falling
falling
falling
into the dreams I have where you are twirling through the air on the wing like the snowflakes brushing, landing softly on the ground just like your eyelashes on my cheek.
— excerpt from my journal (2/6/10)
miss world: tulletulle: “Teenage girls curl up... →
tulletulle:
“Teenage girls curl up together like newborn puppies, painting one another’s toes as if they were licking one another’s ears. If you sit long enough in any Starbucks, or loiter outside any high school, you will see girls climbing onto one another’s laps, kissing on the lips….
to die by your side…
Not Team Jacob
Dad: Bella has bad luck with guys.
“The more movies I do, the more guilty I feel, and the more cats I feel the need...”
– Jesse Eisenberg (via igottagetbacktohogwarts)
the tectonic plates of my academic life are shifting. “what do you want to do after college?” is becoming a really weighty question that i don’t have an answer to.
I feel like majoring in English isn’t practical. My foundation is shifting and it’s pretty unsettling.
what's worrying me vs. what's important to me
worrying about:
money taxes — can i get my tax return asap plz classes
what’s important:
truth laughing it’s all going to be okay mindset and eating
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Update
Here’s what’s going on with me. This is more for my own benefit and not for the purpose of laying out all the details of my life for strangers and friends alike to read and sympathize with. I need to get everything out so I can organize what’s going on in my head. It’s just my method. I guess.
So. Classes. Back at VCU for the second time. Nothing has changed except my...
“My Heart beats a jig and me blood it flows green
I’ve been a rogue and a...”
– Kiss Me I’m Irish — Gaelic Storm
First day of class……already don’t feel like going…… this doesn’t bode well.
“I was born lost and take no pleasure in being found, nor much identification...”
– Travels With Charley, Steinbeck
“For I have always lived violently, drunk hugely, eaten too much or not at all,...”
– Travels With Charley, Steinbeck
“There are as many worlds as there are kinds of days, and as an opal changes its...”
– Travels With Charley, John Steinbeck
No I don’t believe in the wasting of time, But I don’t believe that I’m wasting mine If you don’t have a point to make Don’t sweat it You’ll make a sharp one being so kind And I’d sure appreciate it Everyone else’s goal’s to get big headed Why should I follow that beat being that I’m Better than fine
“Waltz (Better Than...
Never Tickle A Sleeping Dragon: When a girl in my... →
nerdandahalf:
IIF YOU BELIEVE WOMEN SHOULD BE PAID THE SAME AMOUNT OF MONEY FOR DOING THE SAME JOB AS A MAN, YOU BELIEVE IN FEMINISM.
IF YOU BELIEVE WOMEN SHOULD HAVE THE SAME CHANCE OF GETTING INTO THE COLLEGE/UNIVERSITY OF HER CHOICE AS A MAN, YOU BELIEVE IN FEMINISM.
IF YOU BELIEVE WOMEN HAVE THE SAME RIGHT TO CHOOSE HOW THEY LIVE THEIR LIFE AND HOW THEY CHANGE THE WORLD AS A MAN, YOU...
lol
my roommate and i just smoked a bowl and she left for work talking about how she wouldn’t be able to remember what her tables would order. I told her to simply take a tablet along so she could write it down. she asked me, “who says ‘tablet’ anymore?”
clearly I do.
“I don’t ask for much these days, and I don’t bitch and whine when I...”
– The Roots
The Perfect Space -- Avett Brothers
I wanna have friends that I can trust, that love me for the man I’ve become not the man I was. I wanna have friends that will let me be all alone when being alone is all that I need. I wanna fit in to the perfect space, feel natural and safe in a volatile place. And I wanna grow old without the pain, give my body back to the earth and not complain. Will you understand when I am too old...
“I am a weapon of massive consumption, it’s not my fault, it’s how...”
– The Fear — Lily Allen